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- Padi's "Kasih Tak Sampai" -

my friend is having his bersanding ceremony this weekend...got married to his uni sweetheart who's also a friend of mine...it was expected, really, the way they carried on during those years in uni and after...but it was until the night he called to invite me and my friends to the ceremony tomorrow, that it finally hit me..gosh, he's actually getting married...

actually, i'm boggled by the ease these people transfer themselves from the state of bachelorhood to becoming a permanent partner to someone..many of my friends from uni have commited such act within the first year upon graduation...invitations started flying in, left, right and centre..and news of such marital knots were in the air...and lately, those who got hitched, are sporting large maternal pregnant tummy..its as if it's the latest accessory, i tell ya...pretty soon, we'll be going to visit new mothers with gifts...

*sigh* do i sound bitter? do i sound jealous? i hope not...but perhaps, that's what i am...i pride myself on being a happily-single person, who loves life, friends and family, and not being able to comprehend the idea of being tied down to one person...i cherish my freedom (well, what little i have of )...and i can't seem to digest the idea of having a significant other....huh? can u actually IMAGINE me with one??!!

or perhaps...it's a shell as a shield i built around myself..ever since the day i looked into the mirror and thought, would anyone be attracted to this face? hehehe..over the years, i've discovered that beauty is only skin deep...and tons of my friends, who aren't of Miss Universe proportions have procured significant others....hmm..not in my case...hence, i'm happy being me, being with me, and friends..having a few precious ones that i hang out with and pour my heart and soul to, call up whenever i've something juicy to say, or to simply exchange empty nonsense...nope, i didn't think i needed that special someone...and i think (well, VERY, VERY pompous of me to say this, and i know one day it's gonna kick me back in the butt) i find the idea of always having a significant other to complete your life, kinda shows a person's weakness....eeppss!!! stop throwing bricks at me! ok,ok! i won't say it anymore!!

*standing up, straightening my clothes* and another guy friend of mine have finally unearth a significant other for himself...good for him, i'd say..after years of pining after a happily-attached friend of ours, he can now claim happily-attached himself, and be able to shower her with all those lovey-dovey-wovey things he's always wanted to do...*wistful*... do i wish the girl was me? heck, noo....just that when i found out earlier, my breathe catches at my throat...

why all these self-pitying ramblings so early in the morning? well, maybe, it's because....i've gotten two tickets to the premier of the Starlight Cinema show in Bukit Kiara this Sunday, and i have no one special to share it with...

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