Make peace when life gives u lemons


Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "I love you"
Birds singing in the sycamore tree
Dream a little dream of me

- Mama Cass's "Dream a Little Dream" OST French Kiss-


hmm...still merajuk..but am attempting to make peace with this thingy...

i have to answer docteejay's and sleeksexycat's queries on why i don't have a tagboard...thank you dear readers and friends for taking the time to fill up the guestbook...i only have gratitude for you..hmm, why i don't have a tagboard? well, to me it all boils down to my self-esteem...i have low volumes of it...i envy those who have a full tagboard with comments and chats that keeps flowing everytime i visit the blog...in my opinion, it's a very good blog and the readers are always around to discuss something or to simply communicate with each other...now, with my blog...hmm, i'm not very sure exactly how many people are reading this thing..and i do not want to flatter myself by thinking that i have THAT many readers...but for certain, i have a few loyal readers...the ones i force them to read this thing daily would be, of course, my best buds, nona and afti...i know i have a few other valued and honoured readers as well..those who actually drop in of curiousity or people who know me outside the world of blogging who drops in out of courtesy...among these wonderful people are tasia, feli, kak ja, khalil, kak idlan, nads, docteejay, bintangmalam @ armand wolfgang, sleeksexycat, neri, su-li, basrie, YBLalat, and maybe, a few others i've forgotten to mention...but my self-confidence does not permit me to put up a tagboard...

i love attention so much so that if i don't have an active conversation going on on my tagboard...i might just keel over..hehehe..oklaa not to that extent...but yeah, something like that...i'm sorry for sounding too shallow, ungrateful, and just, plain silly...but when i finally decide to put up a tagboard, you, my friends, will be the first to know....but for the meantime, i'll just stick to the guestbook...oh, trust me...i value the guestbook as much as i value my harry potter books...it's like my own personal tagboard...u can't imagine how many times a day i'll take a peek into it just to see if there's any entry in it...hehehe...so u can imagine how much ur feedback to me means...believe me, if i can manage it, my guestbook would come with a fluffy red carpet, icy tropical punch, and the most delicious cheesy nachos and a bouquet of daisies for all its visitors...unfortunately , u guys have to settle for a big, warm THANK YOU from me...hehehe, that's about all i have right now...my sincerest gratitude...

just a tiny bit of an update...afti dear, i wrote 5 days worth of an update last night..unfortunately, blogger wiped it all off...grr, grr...was considering posting the whole of Order of the pHoenix, but have too much respect for Dumbledore to do that..hehehe...

went for a little makan-makan at the local Secret Recipe yesterday with a dear friend and a friend that has become dear to me after all these years...was glad to see him as have not seen him for quite a bit..was very happy to note that there were no akwardness between the 2 of us and we got along just like friends who have not seen each other for a while...was very, very happy that i no longer feel what i used to felt for him a long time ago...i was younger then, a little immature, impatient, a little bit more emotional...which lead me to harbour some deep feelings for him...i no longer feel that way...i wonder if he found out after all these years about all these..? well, if he did, then he's doing a good job at not revealing it to me...just as well...he deserves someone else, unlike me....and i, definitely deserve someone else, unlike him...i'm just happy that out of all these, i've gotten myself a friend, someone i can count on...and a bundle of memories..some bad, some good, but mostly, unforgettable...however, if you were to dig deep into this heart of mine, you might be able to find a tiny twinge of regret..but just a tiny one.. :)

i am at peace now...i hope this thing won't erase itself after i publish it...have just filled up 3 tins of biscuits in the office...yup, one of my job description is biscuit-provider...i spent 2 hours yesterday deciding and buying biscuits for my colleagues... i bought 5 different types and layered them in...so i told them that they'll find a surprise every week..hehehe....3 types of cheap, pasar malam biscuit (but really yummy ones! ) and two poshies types on the top layer...bagi diorang gemuk..muahahaha....

have a good day, all u beautiful people... :)