Finding Ravi In the Fog...

I'm every woman
It's all in me
Anything you want done baby
I do it naturally

- Whitney Houston's "I'm Every Woman" -

ugghh..sleeepynyee...*yawn*..got back late lst night..short of an hour of sleep..sheesh..

2 nights ago, i received a phone call..the girl on the line had this chirpy "hello" and i was figuring out who she was..i didn't recognise the number but thought that it was a call made from Subang..i said a cautious "hie" and she went "hie!" chirpily back..suddenly, i knew who it was..."Su-Li!!!!"...hehehhe...and there she went, cackling her trademark hysterical laughter....Su-Li's back in town for 2 weeks of her winter break and wanted to meet up before she left home back to Oz on Wednesday (tomorrow)...that's soo typical of these overseas friends..they wait until the very last minute then practically begged us to drop everything just to meet them up for a few minutes, when, actually, they had like, what, 2 whole weeks before and didn't even call us up??!! heheheh..but it's the thought that counts..plus she had excuses (don't we all..) so, we called up a few friends and decided to meet up at the SS 15 Mamak in Subang...

now, Subang was where i grew up and i declare myself an expert on the area (ahem, hehehe..) but i didn't know that the friendly looking Mamak/ makan2 area in SS 15 has turned into this dodgy, almost ghetto-like neighbourhood...i used to go the cybercafes there at night and not really worry bout my surroundings..but last night, it was rather scary and dark, not that many people around...i made my way to the supposed Ravi corner, and eh, wait a minute? empty space?? where's Ravi?! there were only Malay gerais there (and not the same friendly ones i used to frequent when i was younger..)

so i searched for Su-Li, couldn't find her, called her up, and finally saw her (with her younger brother as her escort, hehhehe..) we both decided that the place was too dodgy and proceeded to move to another spot..called up our friends and finally agreed to go to Gazebo...the place where overpriced teh tarik rules..it was funny when they handed us the menu and they listed all kinds of posh-sounding drinks and ice-blended stuff...Su-Li was commenting "they have ice-blended Milo?!"..after reading through their extensive menu, we turn blankly to the waiter and ordered limau suam kosong and teh ais!! so much for the exclusive menu!

the other friends are Rey, Soo May and the bubbly Prem...it was fun! i haven't had this kinda gathering in a long time, therefore i always try to make it to any..even tho' it invloves sacrificing my tidur malam...we stayed until midnight chatting and laughing our heads off...one thing i'm always amazed with us is the lack of self-consciousness when we start chatting in public..i mean, if we could only see ourselves..we're always loud (very UN-intentional) and definitely, ahem, graphic...we were too busy describing Mariah Carey's, ahem, anatomy, complete with graphical description, when i realised, hey, anybody could be watching us! oh, the horror!! hehehhe...

it was fun, fun, fun...and it was kinda endearing to see how we turned out after all those pinafore-braces-dorky specs-ugly hairdos secondary school years..well, some of us are still in that phase..but, look at them now...Su-Li's studying for a double degree in Law & Commerce in Melbourne Uni, Rey is in her final year as a Medic student at HUKM, Prem is also in her final year of Chemical Engineering in UM (and onwards to Petronas after that..) and Soo May is attached to Deloitte as an auditor with big dreams to make it in Singapore...but whenever we got together, it's as if we haven't stepped out of school yet...i miss those days...

on a more sober note, another reminder of the Powers of God and a reminder of how humble I should be...i am grateful for the strength he has given me and that i prayed hard enough for that strength...maybe it's not my rezeki, but as always, there must be a hikmah beneath it..i have to accept it and move on...i thought it would be hard for me to accept but, surprisingly, i'm okay...i thought i would have broken down in tears earlier on, but i find it easier to be sensible and to get along with my daily life..i won't stop praying, hoping, dreaming and wishing for it tho'...i guess, when the time comes, it will be granted to me...it's a good thing i've prepared myself for this..i don't want to think if i had not put any pros and cons into consideration...insya-Allah, someday, with the Grace of God, i'll be able to do it..in the meantime, i'm still here :)