fresh from another round of blog-reading, i return to my own blog for some fresh input...what i can see from some of the blogs i've read is that they all seem to have this arrghh-inducing life...some talk about being suicidal, some about the headaches they've been experiencing, some bout their shitty life, being so stressed..yada,yada,yada...

and here i am thinking bout something morbid to write only to find that i have nothing to complain about, nothing to be mad about, nothing to hate...well, not at this moment..sure, i have the occasional grouses, at times i think life is being unfair to me, y'know the usual...but somehow..those problems seem so minor compared to the problems i might be facing later on in life...it also seems so selfish, self-centered of me to think those thoughts...

i dunno...should i give myself the pleasure to be depressed? or should i maintain my cheerful world so that nobody shares the sadness (if there is any at the moment)...for nobody has really seen me very depressed...it's always funny n cheerful me...well, most of the times anyway..i think they also see me as upbeat, always looking at the brighter side of things..(excuse me while i elevate myself to a higher level here, haha)...i guess i don't want ppl to see me sad...it makes me feel vulnerable...cuz i always think that there is a way out of any problems...i guess if i see ppl sympathizing with me, it's like there is no more hope, no more solution to my problems...

plus the fact that once i let myself be consumed by my problems, depression sets in and it'll take me ages to get out of it..trust me, when i'm depressed or mad..it's not a pretty sight at all...i can mope n merajuk for DAYS....i'll find myself snarling at ppl...and i will totally, totally be a pessimist...oo..that's not good..that's not me, haha...

so, today, as i'm in a better mood...i'm happier and i'll think more happy positive thoughts....especially after i had the cornetto love potion ice-cream for lunch...hahaaha..i'm supposed to be on a diet...but screw diet today...as i walked back from the mall to my office, licking my ice-cream..i suddenly wondered what a sight i must have looked..just like those primary shool children, eating ice-cream after school...not professional-looking i must say...

haha, who knows, maybe someone might get an idea for a new tv commercial! :)